The Moon

Some people may wonder why there is a moon behind my family crest.

From my affliction I finally understand what Jesus says in John 10:16"

I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to My Voice, and there shall be one flock and One Shepherd.

My Life Scriptures spoken to me by God will help me explain also.

Psalm 23:4: Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your Rod and Your Staff, they comfort me.

Isaiah 9:2: The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of the shadow of death a light has dawned.

(Given during the hardest part of my affliction)
Galatians 2:20: I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, Who loved me and gave Himself for me.

Psalm 23:4 and Isaiah 9:2 were given to me when God ended my training. I am trained as a Deliverance Minister (the closest thing I can compare a Deliverance Minister too is an Exorcist, however I don't do anything until God says I can).

Galatians 2:20 was given when in my beating and death I learned and understood what the people God has commissioned me to save go through everyday and how to save them and bring them back to Jesus so in turn that can save a multitude with their testimony and God Given Gifts.

In John 10:16 Jesus is talking about two flocks, those who can save in the light and those of us, like me, who can save in the darkest of people's hells. There is nothing wrong with the two flocks, however this is were you get the in-fighting that has been going on for centuries in the Body of Christ. Pastors who don't like the way other pastors preach.

The church belongs to Christ, every single church on this planet for He started the Church. The two flocks can best be explained as the sun and the moon. Sun flocks are like the 11 (there were 12 in all) disciples that followed Jesus. They are very powerful but when it comes down to messing with the demonic they know they can call on Jesus and He will come to their aid. The moon flocks are like Paul. Paul never walked with Jesus like the first 11 did, though Paul was powered by the Son. Paul didn't have Jesus in His human form to say, "Jesus go handle that man with a legion of demons. I'm not messing with that!" No Paul's light, like the moon, was coming from a much stronger source - Jesus. Paul did great things and he handled the forces of hell without fear, because he knew Jesus was with him, and demons even knew of him and came out of people.

John 10:16 - the disciples were with Jesus at the time. They were under the light of the Son (sun flocks). Paul saw Jesus after Jesus returned to Heaven, he did not walk with Jesus physically. However, Jesus walked through and powered Paul to rescue people from their hells (night flocks). Sun flocks preach hope. Night Flock preach Grace and often perform deliverances. Both are being lead by Jesus but only Jesus can bring them together. Instead of in-fighting in the Body of Christ we all just need to save all the people God has commissioned us to save. We as people are by no means perfect however through love we can lead each other to the Only One who is - Jesus.

I went through a 7 year affliction because of the misunderstanding and in-fighting in the church. They did not understand this revelation that was given to me by God and Jesus. Instead of seeing me as a brethren, I was deemed a demon out of church prejudice and massacred. Abandoned and left to die physically and spiritually the only one who came to pull me out of my greatest hell was Jesus. I believed in Jesus' saving power but no longer in humanity and that is when Jesus sent me a human who could walk like Paul in Christ - my husband Derrick.

My testimony for all of this: I was saved by Love. The Love I received was so powerful that is made me willfully repent, have a genuine love for others, and gave me the ability to save others. Love = Grace and it can save even in the darkest of places in your life. 1 Peter 4:8 states above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.
What does love cover sins with? The Love of God and the Blood of Jesus as stated in John 3:16-17.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.

Hidden in your affliction and even "church" hurt are clues to who God made you to be and like Jesus you are suffering to learn how to save those who need you. But you can only do so if you allow Jesus to train you (sun flock) or walk within you (night flock).

Under Construction

Hi All!!!

Thanks for reading this blog. This blog is going to be under construction for some time. New things are happening in my life. I know it has been a loooong time since I wrote into this blog but it has been 7 years now that I have been in my affliction and a new beginning has started.

Though I was rejected and forgotten by "church folk" and even though it seemed as though God even forgot about me, I learned that He never did and was always on my side standing as my protection. I had to go through to understand what many even thousands of you suffer everyday - being hurt but the "church."

There is more at work behind the scenes of "church folk" hurting you. There are other forces at work trying to stop you from getting the revelations of God and Jesus, Who They are to you. In my affliction I didn't come to know the Love of God and Christ through the "church" but through one person.

In my affliction what I was taught about God and Jesus and even reading the Bible didn't help in my deepest pain. I'm not saying that Bible teaching isn't great, but there is a point in your life that you know all the Scriptures but you are so far down in hell with a dead heart that one cannot receive the things taught on Sunday.

Two people ruined my life and took church out of my life by their malicious intents. How then did I survive without "church"? When I had lost everything and everyone, the person I was called to save and bring to Christ in turn saved me through love and being a good Samaritan.

I am by no means perfect and I had to learn that even though I have been a Christian all my life for 37 years know, that even a Christian can fall and break so hard that all that is left is to scream for Christ, redemption, forgiveness, peace, rest, and freedom so hard that your physical body bleeds.

During and even after the construction of this blog, if you need help or an ear to listen your can write me at iknowthyself8@yahoo.com. Please allow some time for me to get back to you all emails are precious to me.

Sneak Peak: This blog is under construction because God has been telling me to revamp it for years to better serve you and since I have ended my 7 year affliction there is a book in the mix. It is a journal that is over 1000 pages of what I endured, how I failed, hurt, cried, lost, suffered, still believed in God and Jesus, and how I survived to tell you that you can make it out of your darkest of hells. People may have forgotten you but God, from the beginning of time to the end, will never forget about you.
I learned from my affliction that world changers suffer the hardest because the suffering is not for them - it is for God to save thousands of lives or make this world a better place through what the world changer has learned in their affliction. Are you a world changer? I surely in my heart believe that you are :o)